life so far

Growing up,i tried to survive at every step...it was easier then now i feel old and hopeless,lonely.
Losing hope is the worst thing that can happen to someone,its true that we know nothing about the future but we pass each day hoping the next would be better than this.I cant seem to do it anymore,life seems more complicated.Theres so much to explore yet...but i want to break free,
i dont like the person i have become and i lack the courage to change...thats what bothers me the most.Losing my loved ones was fate but what im doing rite now is totally upto me and sadly i aint able to fix it... I wanna be a better person. I wanna make my life easier by doing so!
to be continued...